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Darling don’t give me shit ’cause I know that you’re full of it.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Kate Nash lately and I’ve also been feeling this silly, little song a lot lately, so I thought I’d share. One of these days I’ll figure out how to just put a song on here, but for now, all you get are lyrics. So here it is, aptly titled “Dickhead” :

Why you being a dickhead for?
Stop being a dickhead
Why you being a dickhead for?
You’re just fucking up situations

Why you being a dickhead for?
Stop being a dickhead
Why you being a dickhead for?
Youre just fucking up situations

Shiny floor, slippery feet
Lights are dim, my eyes can’t meet
The reflection that turns my images
Upside down so I can’t see

Think you know everything
You really don’t know nothing
I wish that you were more intelligent
So you could see that what you are doing is
So shitty, to me

Thirty five
People couldn’t count
On two hands the amount of times
You made me stop
Stop and think:
“Why are you being such a dickhead for?”

Stop being a dickhead
Why you being a dickhead for?
You’re just fucking up situations
Why you being a dickhead for?
Stop being a dickhead
Why you being a dickhead for?
You’re just fucking up situations

Stop, no, don’t show
Just have a think before you…
Will you stop, no, don’t show
Just have a think before you…
Will you stop, no, don’t show
Just have a think before you…
And, stop, don’t show
Oh, Just have a think before you…

Cos my brain and my bones don’t want to take this anymore
My brain and my bones don’t want to take this anymore
My brain and my bones don’t want to take this anymore
My brain and my bones don’t want to take this anymore, so

Why you being a dickhead for?
Stop being a dickhead
Why you being a dickhead for?
You’re just fucking up situations

Why you being a dickhead for?
Stop being a dickhead
Why you being a dickhead for?
You’re just fucking up situations

Hustlin’, hustlin’. Everyday I’m hustlin’.

I’ve been in a mood…you know what I mean? I can’t seem to shake it either. I thought I had toward the end of last week, but it’s back…what to do…?

I can’t sleep. I mean, I sleep, but it’s not real sleep. My mind hasn’t shut down since…? Won’t shut down. I dream and then can’t remember if what happened was a dream or something that actually happened in my waking life. It’s a weird sensation. It happens every so often. I just want to sleep. Real sleep.

Aside from the usual suspects–school, finals, work, etc. I think I’ve made a decision that I’m not very happy with. That I wasn’t really ready for. That I kind of want to take back. It causes me little pangs of pain; teeny, tiny panic attacks. I really did think I would be fine, but maybe I’ve changed my mind. When did I become this kind of girl?

I apologize for being so cryptic. Sometimes I can’t decide if something is blog appropriate or personal journal appropriate? Maybe there’s no longer a difference? I want to talk about it, and I don’t. Mostly I just want it to go away.

Still waiting on that time machine…