Some of my best friends are books.

It’s that time again–school is over for the semester and therefore I have more time to let my mind wander aimlessly and we all know how dangerous that can be. Now that I’m not constantly reading and writing for class or perfecting my German comprehension and speaking skills, I’m not quite sure what to do with myself. There are only so many miles I can run in a day, so many walks on I go on with my bf Dottie and our roommate Bowie, so many hours I can fulfill dancing around the house or reading or sewing. And so my mind wanders…

Without the distraction of school, I suddenly remember where I am and sometimes, it’s not a pretty realization. I try and dive into books and get lost for a while, but that only lasts for so long before my mind takes off in another direction. I get wanderlust so easily when I’m not focused. I keep waiting for that magical moment my mom always cautions me about, when I’ll suddenly want to “settle down” or “decide have children”–as if there’s a switch in my brain that suddenly turns on and I automatically become domesticated and decide to stay in one place. Instead I have these moments where I start dreaming about all of the things I want to accomplish, all of the places I want to go and I start to feel anxious; not because I need to settle down, but because I feel as if I’m running out of time to do everything that I want. The thought is overwhelming–almost explosive. I want to go in a million different directions at once, at the speed of light. Instead I’m here, slowly and carefully making my way.

I just want to take off; wind in my hair, sun on my face and music in my ears. Even if it’s just temporarily. Who’s down for an adventure?


2 Responses to “Some of my best friends are books.”

  1. 1 Carissa June 2, 2010 at 9:38 am

    I’m constantly feeling the same. Wanna take a trip?

  2. 2 goodnightrose June 2, 2010 at 6:19 pm

    Yes, please!

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